There are so many god damn emotions inside of me right now and I have ZERO outlets for release. Drawing isn't helping. Exercise isn't helping. Food is un-satisfying. Alcohol is unappealing right now. There are so many positive things I could use to refocus my energy but I am so caught up. How can you want to love someone to pieces and give them everything but at the same time want to slap them in the face for hurting you. It is completely illogical and infuriating. I'm a logical person. What the hell is happening to me. I'm such a mess.